Nothing. No inspiration, no funny story to share.... NOTHING. I have never felt so unmotivated and blah in my life. It seems there has been a whirlwind of bad coming our way the past few weeks, and I would like to make it known we have had enough. Just in case the bad was waiting for us to say it. I would yell it, but the neighbors might not appreciate that.
Despite the bad, I know I am blessed. My family is beautiful and healthy, the hubs has a secure job, we have food on the table and a roof over head and a God that loves us mightily. That has been my mantra the past few weeks, and about the only thing pushing me through at this point. Hey whatever works, right?
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Snow!
I'll admit it, I have mixed feelings about the snow... hate driving in it, love watching it. So when I saw it start coming down last night I was both hotly angered and giddy. Thankfully driving in it was not at all bad this morning. I took big girl to school at 8, only to have her principal come running out to inform me school was starting 2 freaking hours late. Are you kidding me??!? There is maybe 2 inches, it is light and dusty, not slushy. Easy to drive in and school is starting late? Of course while all of that was going through my head, I smiled sweetly and said "Thanks for running out to tell me! We'll see you in 2 hours!" Bah. So we went to Walmart. It was either that or the Dollar Store.
I have 3 packages to get in the post today, I hope they are open late because there is no way no how I am dragging the boys with me. Holy moly were they naughty in the store today. I said "Lets get daddy some presents" Which translates in boy speak to "Find every car, plane and helicopter you can and try to throw it in the cart when mommy isn't looking" And big boy stole a pack of gum. I don't know what to do. Do I just return it by myself? Do I have him return it and apologize? He's 5. I have talked to him, and he understands it is wrong. I don't want to scar him, but I am so unsure of the right way to do this. Why does being a mom have to be so difficult sometimes?
In other more upbeat news I am 95% done with my shopping. I have a few things left to get, and some stocking stuffers but I am pretty much done. Yay ME! I am still holding out hope that my husband will get me a bulldog for Christmas, but I am thinking he isn't getting all the hints, clues and photos I am leaving out for him! Darn.
I have 3 packages to get in the post today, I hope they are open late because there is no way no how I am dragging the boys with me. Holy moly were they naughty in the store today. I said "Lets get daddy some presents" Which translates in boy speak to "Find every car, plane and helicopter you can and try to throw it in the cart when mommy isn't looking" And big boy stole a pack of gum. I don't know what to do. Do I just return it by myself? Do I have him return it and apologize? He's 5. I have talked to him, and he understands it is wrong. I don't want to scar him, but I am so unsure of the right way to do this. Why does being a mom have to be so difficult sometimes?
In other more upbeat news I am 95% done with my shopping. I have a few things left to get, and some stocking stuffers but I am pretty much done. Yay ME! I am still holding out hope that my husband will get me a bulldog for Christmas, but I am thinking he isn't getting all the hints, clues and photos I am leaving out for him! Darn.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Morning
I am so not a morning person. I mean I can get up while the clock says AM just as long as it is after 8. Anytime before that and it takes me at least 20 minutes to get going. It is ridiculous.
I am in a bit of a conundrum. I love to bake. LOVE IT! And I am trying to be healthy, eat well, exercise all that.(Dont love that so much) December is usually my big, bake every sweet recipe possible month, and well baking sweets that go right to my hips and being healthy dont really go well together. I know they can, but not when you have the will power of someone who doesn't have any will power. So do I bake anyways, and just try my hardest to ignore the treats potentially setting myself up for failure, or do I punish my family by not baking? My instinct tells me it isn't fair to punish them, they really will suffer if I don't bake. Hmmm what to do?
I put up our new nativity yesterday, and asked baby boy who the woman was. He replied "The baby holder". I think some bible stories are on the docket today!
Yesterday was the funeral for the Lakewood police officers. I was only able to watch the last hour, but it was still hard to sit through. I cannot imagine what their families are going through, and to put on a brave face for others takes more strength then I think I could ever have. At one point the dispatch status the officers and when they didnt respond, signed them out of service for the last time. I lost it then, I sobbed and hugged my babies close. Our neighbor stopped by and brought my husband a thank you card. It was a small token, but one that means so much. So often the police are vilified, they spend too much time writing tickets instead of catching the real criminals. But they are always there when needed, running towards the danger instead of away.
I am in a bit of a conundrum. I love to bake. LOVE IT! And I am trying to be healthy, eat well, exercise all that.(Dont love that so much) December is usually my big, bake every sweet recipe possible month, and well baking sweets that go right to my hips and being healthy dont really go well together. I know they can, but not when you have the will power of someone who doesn't have any will power. So do I bake anyways, and just try my hardest to ignore the treats potentially setting myself up for failure, or do I punish my family by not baking? My instinct tells me it isn't fair to punish them, they really will suffer if I don't bake. Hmmm what to do?
I put up our new nativity yesterday, and asked baby boy who the woman was. He replied "The baby holder". I think some bible stories are on the docket today!
Yesterday was the funeral for the Lakewood police officers. I was only able to watch the last hour, but it was still hard to sit through. I cannot imagine what their families are going through, and to put on a brave face for others takes more strength then I think I could ever have. At one point the dispatch status the officers and when they didnt respond, signed them out of service for the last time. I lost it then, I sobbed and hugged my babies close. Our neighbor stopped by and brought my husband a thank you card. It was a small token, but one that means so much. So often the police are vilified, they spend too much time writing tickets instead of catching the real criminals. But they are always there when needed, running towards the danger instead of away.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Christmas
I love the month of December. I love the decorations, shopping and food. I love that big girl is home everyday during her break, and we bake and play and watch Christmas movies. But I worry sometimes that I let the true reason for celebration slip by a too quietly. Thanking God for the gift of his son is what should be at the top of my list, but it seems it has taken a back seat to more commercial aspects. So I am trying to remember every day just why this time of year is so special, so important.
On Sunday 4 families Christmas celebrations were changed forever. Four Lakewood police officers were ambushed and executed. One man chose to play God and forever change those families lives. My heart aches for them and I cry when I think of the nine children who are suffering, the spouses, the parents, friends and extended family. Please keep these families in your thoughts and prayers.
On Sunday 4 families Christmas celebrations were changed forever. Four Lakewood police officers were ambushed and executed. One man chose to play God and forever change those families lives. My heart aches for them and I cry when I think of the nine children who are suffering, the spouses, the parents, friends and extended family. Please keep these families in your thoughts and prayers.
Friday, November 20, 2009
So much to do,,,,still
My word, I feel drained. I have been going non stop the past few weeks and I don't see any signs of it slowing down in the near future. Between repeat illnesses, school fundraisers, family business and attempting to not lose my mind, I am beat.
I don't know why but my boys just don't seem able to stay well this year. Thankfully they have kept it to themselves, but it is hard to see them so miserable. We are preparing for Big Girls birthday party this weekend at my parents. Big bad mommy that I am grounded her from having a sleep over with friends. She is turning 7 and has been begging me to get her ears pierced so that is her big surprise. Hopefully she doesn't chicken out!
The hubs got an early Christmas present. He has been complaining that the old TV was too hard to see, and he didn't want to wear his glasses to watch it so I got him a larger improved model. He is quite happy and cannot wait to watch football this weekend! Of course he had to get the surround sound and blu ray to go with it. Give the man and inch and he'll buy the entire electronics store!
Aside from being sick the boys haven't really been up to much. They are perfecting their tower building skills, and praying daily for snow.
I am on the look out for a dog. I have fallen in love with the English Bulldog breed and their so ugly they're cute faces! Don't tell the hubs though, hes more of a cat person!
We cannot wait for Thanksgiving. Hubs has to work, but is able to spend a lot of the day with us so long as his radio is on and he still takes calls. I don't think I have shared, but he is in law enforcement. Scares the bejesus out of me every time he goes to work, and I quietly thank God every time he comes home safely. Still planning the menu, but I hope to incorporate new dishes and create new traditions for us. This is only our second Thanksgiving away from family and may be our last if he gets his transfer so something new and exciting, at least once, totally needs to be done!
I don't know why but my boys just don't seem able to stay well this year. Thankfully they have kept it to themselves, but it is hard to see them so miserable. We are preparing for Big Girls birthday party this weekend at my parents. Big bad mommy that I am grounded her from having a sleep over with friends. She is turning 7 and has been begging me to get her ears pierced so that is her big surprise. Hopefully she doesn't chicken out!
The hubs got an early Christmas present. He has been complaining that the old TV was too hard to see, and he didn't want to wear his glasses to watch it so I got him a larger improved model. He is quite happy and cannot wait to watch football this weekend! Of course he had to get the surround sound and blu ray to go with it. Give the man and inch and he'll buy the entire electronics store!
Aside from being sick the boys haven't really been up to much. They are perfecting their tower building skills, and praying daily for snow.
I am on the look out for a dog. I have fallen in love with the English Bulldog breed and their so ugly they're cute faces! Don't tell the hubs though, hes more of a cat person!
We cannot wait for Thanksgiving. Hubs has to work, but is able to spend a lot of the day with us so long as his radio is on and he still takes calls. I don't think I have shared, but he is in law enforcement. Scares the bejesus out of me every time he goes to work, and I quietly thank God every time he comes home safely. Still planning the menu, but I hope to incorporate new dishes and create new traditions for us. This is only our second Thanksgiving away from family and may be our last if he gets his transfer so something new and exciting, at least once, totally needs to be done!
Friday, October 30, 2009
Funny little thing
So I have these thoughts, as I peruse the blogs I follow, and sigh when they haven't been updated., I think: maybe someday, because I am so witty and awesome lovely ladies will sigh when they see I haven't updated. And my life will be complete. Well maybe not complete, but you know.
I am on the search for cute knee high socks. Remember when I told you about my impulse problem, well I bought a pair of Frye harness boots, and now I need awesome socks to go with them.
I tried to make a ghost cake for the kids, but they got to it before I could cover it with fondant. So it is now a mummy cake, and the back half of his poor head has already been devoured.
Today is scour and disinfect the house Friday. I think we are at the end of the illness journey that has plagued us for the last week-ish. Of course now that everyone is almost healthy it means my turn is coming. Hate how that works. So I really need to get everything clean. Which means I probably should stop typing. But I like all of you so much. All two of you that follow the blog, and the million of you I know read in secret! haha. And I know you find all of this so fascinating in a Wow girlfriend has issues kind of way.
I will clean after I take a nap.
I am on the search for cute knee high socks. Remember when I told you about my impulse problem, well I bought a pair of Frye harness boots, and now I need awesome socks to go with them.
I tried to make a ghost cake for the kids, but they got to it before I could cover it with fondant. So it is now a mummy cake, and the back half of his poor head has already been devoured.
Today is scour and disinfect the house Friday. I think we are at the end of the illness journey that has plagued us for the last week-ish. Of course now that everyone is almost healthy it means my turn is coming. Hate how that works. So I really need to get everything clean. Which means I probably should stop typing. But I like all of you so much. All two of you that follow the blog, and the million of you I know read in secret! haha. And I know you find all of this so fascinating in a Wow girlfriend has issues kind of way.
I will clean after I take a nap.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Workin on it
I am an impatient person. When I get something in my head, it has to happen immediately. If not I get cranky and pout and carry on like a spoiled toddler. Not my finest moment and something I am working on, but there it is. The unfortunate part is once I get what I want I realize how impulsive I was and regret my decision.
I am working so hard to be a better mom, a better wife and a better friend. And God knows my struggle because I give it to him... a few hundred times a day. But dang it all if I don't want to wake up in the morning perfect and loved by everyone for how lovely I am to be around.... I'm not there yet. As a matter of fact I yelled at my almost 4 year old this morning to take his medicine. It is awful, horrible stuff... but it helps. Poor baby was almost coughing himself off the bed last night. He refused. He cried. He kicked and covered his mouth. I spilled the medicine. And I yelled. And then I felt awful. I went to his room and apologized. I begged him to please take his medicine. I bribed him with donuts, candy, money, anything his little heart could want. Nothing worked. Until I said he could rinse his mouth as soon as he swallowed it.... that was the key!
I am back to being nice mom. I took big girl to school, gave her kisses and told her how much I love her. I cam home and straitened up... a little. Big boy is sick and my moving around was agitating him. And baby just wanted mommy to sit with him. So here I am. Watching Clifford.
So I am not perfect yet. Maybe tomorrow... probably not.
I am working so hard to be a better mom, a better wife and a better friend. And God knows my struggle because I give it to him... a few hundred times a day. But dang it all if I don't want to wake up in the morning perfect and loved by everyone for how lovely I am to be around.... I'm not there yet. As a matter of fact I yelled at my almost 4 year old this morning to take his medicine. It is awful, horrible stuff... but it helps. Poor baby was almost coughing himself off the bed last night. He refused. He cried. He kicked and covered his mouth. I spilled the medicine. And I yelled. And then I felt awful. I went to his room and apologized. I begged him to please take his medicine. I bribed him with donuts, candy, money, anything his little heart could want. Nothing worked. Until I said he could rinse his mouth as soon as he swallowed it.... that was the key!
I am back to being nice mom. I took big girl to school, gave her kisses and told her how much I love her. I cam home and straitened up... a little. Big boy is sick and my moving around was agitating him. And baby just wanted mommy to sit with him. So here I am. Watching Clifford.
So I am not perfect yet. Maybe tomorrow... probably not.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Life is crazy
The work on the house is finished! We have new tenants living there, and they appear to be normal and willing to take great care of the house. They are an answer to our prayers, and I am so thankful. Finally we can relax, at least for a bit!
The family has been sick, but I think we are at the end of it. My youngest has a horrible cough, but seems more chipper tonight.
I have started on my Christmas shopping, I cannot believe it is almost here. First of course I am planning a family Halloween party for the kids. I still need to go shopping for a few things, but I think the kids are going to have a lot of fun.
The family has been sick, but I think we are at the end of it. My youngest has a horrible cough, but seems more chipper tonight.
I have started on my Christmas shopping, I cannot believe it is almost here. First of course I am planning a family Halloween party for the kids. I still need to go shopping for a few things, but I think the kids are going to have a lot of fun.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Weekend renovations
The family spent the weekend at our old house, renovating in hopes of getting a fair price when it goes on the market. I am now a power tool goddess! But that awesome new title does not make up for the fact that home repairs suck. Especially when you don't get to live in said home and enjoy all the new.
The plus side is the kids get to see my parents and run all over their property. And I get a chance to visit them. I really do miss living near my family. Unfortunately it also brings up questions of why they can't see hubs family. Recently we had to sever ties with them which I think has been pretty difficult on the kids. Hopefully over time communication can be opened again and we can all heal, but for now the relationship is toxic, and not something I want to expose the kids to.
In talking with my mom, she has a sewing machine for me! Hopefully I can get it this weekend. I am so excited to learn, and to hopefully be able to follow some of the awesome patterns I have seen on different blogs. I'd love to be able to sew clothes for the kids and myself. The hubs isn't really into the whole homemade thing,yet. Maybe once he sees my awesome skills he'll change his mind!
The plus side is the kids get to see my parents and run all over their property. And I get a chance to visit them. I really do miss living near my family. Unfortunately it also brings up questions of why they can't see hubs family. Recently we had to sever ties with them which I think has been pretty difficult on the kids. Hopefully over time communication can be opened again and we can all heal, but for now the relationship is toxic, and not something I want to expose the kids to.
In talking with my mom, she has a sewing machine for me! Hopefully I can get it this weekend. I am so excited to learn, and to hopefully be able to follow some of the awesome patterns I have seen on different blogs. I'd love to be able to sew clothes for the kids and myself. The hubs isn't really into the whole homemade thing,yet. Maybe once he sees my awesome skills he'll change his mind!
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Insomnia
I am exhausted. But I can't sleep. Don't you hate that, when you can barely keep your eyes open but the minute you close them your mind races and all thoughts of sleep are replaced with far less pressing, but more stressful things. Aargh. I am going to drag tomorrow, and I'm sure I will post something incoherent. Hopefully it will be funny though, that way when I look back at it I can laugh. Now would be a good time for a sewing machine.
Housework
I hate cleaning. Laundry, dishes, and vaccuming are the bane of my existance. People have enemies, I have chores. If I could spend the rest of my life never having to clean again I would be in heaven. So why do I torture myself everyday?
Today's list, laundry; which includes washing, drying, ironing, folding and putting away. I have 1 1/2 more loads to go before I am free. I think laundry may be my most loathed chore.I want a machine that washes, drys and presses the clothes for me. Is that so much to ask, Maytag? I mean we can send people to space and I can't get a machine that does the work for me.Whatev.
Today's list, laundry; which includes washing, drying, ironing, folding and putting away. I have 1 1/2 more loads to go before I am free. I think laundry may be my most loathed chore.I want a machine that washes, drys and presses the clothes for me. Is that so much to ask, Maytag? I mean we can send people to space and I can't get a machine that does the work for me.Whatev.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
What I have found to be true
I am a people person. And I am addicted to shopping. Neither is a bad trait, but one is definitely harder on the budget! If I could find a job where all I did was shop all day, I would be one of those annoying people who gushes about how much they truly love their job. You know the ones, you roll your eyes at them, and then either lie and say how much you love your job, or try in vain to change the subject.
And people. I love people. The misters job moved us about a year ago, to a tiny town where everyone knows everyone, and yet I think I have felt more alone this past year then I have the entire time I lived in our old city. I just haven't connected with anyone yet, but I have vowed to work on it. I'm thinking a tequila playdate with some other mommies will help!
I also have this sudden urge to be creative. I want to learn how to sew! Upholster furniture! Antique shop and decorate our house the way I see on all those inspiring decor blogs. I'll settle with blogging for now. Between this and becoming the coolest mom on the block I might have my hands full. But I promise to document every single mishap I have along the way of becoming a domesticated housewife and hostess extraordinaire!
And people. I love people. The misters job moved us about a year ago, to a tiny town where everyone knows everyone, and yet I think I have felt more alone this past year then I have the entire time I lived in our old city. I just haven't connected with anyone yet, but I have vowed to work on it. I'm thinking a tequila playdate with some other mommies will help!
I also have this sudden urge to be creative. I want to learn how to sew! Upholster furniture! Antique shop and decorate our house the way I see on all those inspiring decor blogs. I'll settle with blogging for now. Between this and becoming the coolest mom on the block I might have my hands full. But I promise to document every single mishap I have along the way of becoming a domesticated housewife and hostess extraordinaire!
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